Assalamu'alaikum!
Hello everyone!
Before i 'cuap-cuap', i want to tell you: this post is not about boys, crush, or something like that ya.
Time flies soo fast. Well, I just realized it. It was 3 years ago, I entered the junior high school and guess what, now I'm a nine grader and it means... I will 'meet' the national exam NEXT YEAR. Surprising. Really surprising.
And ya, it was a long time ago, i've posted my latest post here. I don't know, is there anyone who read my blog? Is there anyone who keep waiting for every new post from me? Once again, I-don't-know. Yap, gue bukan orang penting, so I think there's no one who cares about this blog. HAHAHA WHAT DID I SAY? I DON'T KNOW OKAY LET'S FORGET ABOUT IT.
I don't even know, when is the first time i joined blogger, what kind of thing I wrote in my first post, who is the first commenter in this blog, how much the reader who already visited this blog and left a comment. I know it's not really important and i know i'm a dramatic person. So... okay, let's forget (for the second time) what did i write.
Okay i should stop to use english to write this post, i'm just like... this is so awkward and this is make me don't know what should i write. Ah, and my english is so bad.
Semua orang punya keinginan. Termasuk gue. Gue mau bikin buku lagi, gue mau sering-sering isi blog, gue mau nilai gue bagus, gue mau ulangan tanpa harus remedial lagi, gue mau diri gue ngerti matematika dan gak buta banget di ips, jago sejarah dunia, ngerti sistem syaraf, dan masih banyak lagi, gue gak bisa nyebutin satu-satu.
Tapi, yaini, penyakit malas kayak udah berakar di tubuh gue. Gue mau banget, bisa mengadakan satu bulan 4 postingan, tapi kesempatannya itu gak ada. Gue akuin, gue udah ngecewain para pembaca (itu pun kalo ada), dengan gak ngepost berbulan-bulan, gak ada kabar, kerjaannya curhat mulu. Dan gak penting banget deh.
Gue lagi bingung sama diri sendiri. Sama perasaan juga. Sometimes, i want to cry as hard as i can with no reason. But sometimes, i can easily be happy just because i see two little boys, acting like their favorite superhero character. Mungkin ini kali ya, yang dimaksud pencarian jati diri?
Tbh, gue nulis post ini untuk pamit. Gue bakal vakum ngeblog selama gue kelas 9. Because there's so many things that i should've done, there's so many goals that i wanted to reach. One of them is... Lulus dengan nem yang bisa ngantar gue masuk ke shs yang gue mau, tanpa perlu takut dan bingung mau sekolah dimana, dan jadi lulusan terbaik diangkatan gue. It sounds like... "Mimpi apa lo semalam? Gak ketinggian?"
I believe, there's nothing impossible. Jadi pilihannya cuma satu, you want it? So do the best to reach it. Gue harus fokus. Kadang ada beberapa waktu di mana gue pengen banget nulis. Duduk di kamar, bikin cerita, senyum-senyum kagum sama tokoh bikinan sendiri. Tapi enggak bisa.
Gue rindu rasanya jadi penulis. Bukan jadi pengeluh seperti saat ini.
Selama ini gue bukan penulis. Gue cuma seseorang yang ngeluh betapa gak punya waktunya gue untuk nulis. Pengeluh yang selalu bingung darimana harus memulai menulis. Gue udah sadar. Dan gue bakal berusaha, ngerubah mindset gue. Ngerubah gaya hidup gue yang kebanyakan ngeluhnya.
Suatu saat nanti. Karena gue juga sadar, i'm not the smart girl, so i should study harder than my friends. Gue mau masuk shs tanpa ribet, jadi gue harus berusaha. Termasuk, nekan perasaan ingin nulis untuk sementara waktu, sampai waktunya di mana nanti gue passed the national exam and get so many holidays. Hihihi, can't hardly waiting for that!
Gue harap, kita semua bisa sukses dengan apapun yang kita pilih. Dan gue harap, segala sesuatu yang kita pilih merupakan pilihan yang terbaik. Gue yakin kok, hasil yang akan kita dapatkan nanti, bergantung sama apa yang kita lakukan saat ini. So... Do our best to reach our goal(s)!
Sampai jumpa dipostingan selanjutnya!
Goodbye all my fellow. Goodbye, my lovely blog.
I'll miss you. Oh, I mean... I do miss you.
Goodbye all my fellow. Goodbye, my lovely blog.
I'll miss you. Oh, I mean... I do miss you.
Wassalam!
